A Leap Into Faith III

I threw my phone in frustration taking every word he said personally and that was when I decided I should go for his best friend. I mean its not going to hurt to try, worst thing that could happen is that he develops feelings for me and starts acting all clingy. And so I stalked his friend and got to know where he goes and when he goes there and gradually started bumping into him “accidentally”. At first they were glances, then it turned into a smile here and there and with time I had his number in my contacts. I’m not going to lie, he is kind of cute… He started filling the void that my best friend left deep inside me. That cut that never seems to heal. One day as I was talking to him my best friend called me, ‘hey’ he said. ‘oh hey, whats up? I’m kind of in a hurry hun’. ‘ I miss what we had can we go back to that under the condition of you leaving your feelings aside?’ ‘Oh so you’ve got demands now? Sweet. Anyway you don’t have to worry about that i’m happily in a relationship now with someone that really loves me.’ He laughed and i hung up, i was disgusted by him now. I talked to my boyfriend with the least amount of words and immediately hung up. I went and got a big box and gathered all of his things, our things and threw it in the garbage without even giving it a second thought. For the first time in a really long while I felt free, I didn’t care about the fact that I used to have a best friend that was like a brother to me and i lost him. It felt so good to let go of everything, to let go of him. I took my phone and deleted every conversation, every picture, every screenshot and with each one i felt stronger and stronger. I felt in control and it was amazing. I got in bed and put on my headphones and put on some music. I suddenly fell asleep and woke up by the sound of my phone ringing a few hours later. ‘Hello?’ I said in a sleepy voice. ‘Where were you? You freaked me out babe’. Yeah we’re that kind of couple, I use the word ‘babe’. ‘Sorry i fell asleep, whats wrong?’ ‘I’m coming over right now’ he said, dead serious now. ‘Are you crazy? my parents are home’. ‘I don’t care’. He did, regardless of what i said. I snuck him to the basement and that was where he spent that night. I woke up with him gone and found a text saying: 'Sorry had to go, early meeting'. I texted him back 'no problem'. I had a bad feeling about that day and I was right. That was the day everything went sideways. I recieved texts and pictures from him even though I blocked his number. I'll never forget every word, every picture. The first text said: 'thought you were happily in a relationship, guess he doesn't feel that way "hun".'