A man's diary #2
10 Sep:
I finally went and talked to her. I know i'm her professor and I shouldn't but I just never felt this way and I'll regret not knowing what could have been. She was so innocent, so sweet, like a little girl with her big round eyes. She had her smile on all the time and with every word she says i realize i love her more. She is my sunshine. She is the moon that lights up the darkness of my days. She is the rainbow that is rare to find. I think I'll do this more often.
13 Sep:
It's the weekend and I'm wondering where she could be. I wish i could see her face. I wish i could see the half smile she passes around when she feels awkward. I wish i could look at her taking notes with her black little notebook and that weird looking pen of hers. I wish i could just look into her eyes while she looks at me interested when i explain things in class. She could be here. She should be here.
19 Sep:
What did I just do??? Did I just ask her out? Did she just say yes? Its so wrong but it feels so right. I can feel my heart beating out of its place. Friday night. OhH FRIDAY NIGHT. I can't wait for it to be here. Wait did she just say yes so i wouldn't fail her? Did she think that if she did this she'd pass my class effortlessly? Is she that low? NO. No. My little girl would never do that. her heart is too pure. I guess I'll just have to wait and see.....
21 Sep:
What should i wear? I feel like a little kid taking his first yearbook picture trying to look good. My hands are shaking. I'm so nervous. Should I wear the yellow shirt or that blue shirt that makes me look good? Or should I wear a suit? Should I wear a black shoe or the brown one? Too many choices. Shit I forgot to shave. I'll be back soon to tell you all about it.
I finally went and talked to her. I know i'm her professor and I shouldn't but I just never felt this way and I'll regret not knowing what could have been. She was so innocent, so sweet, like a little girl with her big round eyes. She had her smile on all the time and with every word she says i realize i love her more. She is my sunshine. She is the moon that lights up the darkness of my days. She is the rainbow that is rare to find. I think I'll do this more often.
13 Sep:
It's the weekend and I'm wondering where she could be. I wish i could see her face. I wish i could see the half smile she passes around when she feels awkward. I wish i could look at her taking notes with her black little notebook and that weird looking pen of hers. I wish i could just look into her eyes while she looks at me interested when i explain things in class. She could be here. She should be here.
19 Sep:
What did I just do??? Did I just ask her out? Did she just say yes? Its so wrong but it feels so right. I can feel my heart beating out of its place. Friday night. OhH FRIDAY NIGHT. I can't wait for it to be here. Wait did she just say yes so i wouldn't fail her? Did she think that if she did this she'd pass my class effortlessly? Is she that low? NO. No. My little girl would never do that. her heart is too pure. I guess I'll just have to wait and see.....
21 Sep:
What should i wear? I feel like a little kid taking his first yearbook picture trying to look good. My hands are shaking. I'm so nervous. Should I wear the yellow shirt or that blue shirt that makes me look good? Or should I wear a suit? Should I wear a black shoe or the brown one? Too many choices. Shit I forgot to shave. I'll be back soon to tell you all about it.
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